Friday, August 22, 2008

seattle

Aug 22, 08:
when I was checking the meaning of tentative in the cambridge advanced learner dictionary, this sentence was given as an example, I have made tentative plans to go to seattle in july.

dec 12, 08:
once again I bumped into 'tentative' but this time, through searching for the right word to be written before syllabus in 'growing up in mnnit'.

Thursday, August 21, 2008

C-DOT

21 August:
* C-Dot had come yesterday for placements and today it took Agrim Jain, Amit pratap singh, binny, prateek awasthi, and ratindra pandey

* ratindra's cpi is 7.75 and mine is 7.66

* now after the placements when I think of it, I think I am happy that I did not get selected in C-DOT and have been placed in a private firm with a good job

* it would have been utter insanity if I had waited for c-dot and left all other companies as I may otherwise wanted to do.

* perhaps, at the end of day, as always, i really don't know what I want but the good thing is that as always, destiny is doing my shopping.

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Novel == Novell

Aug 18: Is it mere co incidence that Novell software has novel as its prefix.

Saturday, August 16, 2008

The rule

* Will the story be set in a fancy land or real life?
> The story should be set in real life coz that will reduce the burden from my mind and I could focus on the story concept instead of irrelevant details.

> But then there is the risk of plagiarism i.e. my novel would end up being one of the several other novels on the same theme.

> What difference it makes if it does and what if it doesn't. I have to express myself in the best possible way and that should be my first and last priority.

> But would not fancy land be a much better option i.e it might make it all appear less boring and treat the main theme as an add on thus increasing the effect, something like the script writing style of Mani ratnam.

> Hmm, thats a good option and this way I may make it a children story too.

> Oh great, so what about giving it a form of a children's tale.

> But can a child be able to digest all that. What should be the level of intellectualism that I would feed them.

> Yes, that's a genuine doubt.

> So the rule would not be treated as a child's tale.

* But will it be set in a fancy land.
> That might be a good option but it will make the task of writing all the more difficult.

* If I am going for a fancy land, what sort of place will be it and how will it differ from real life.

* Can the story be set inside the brain, after all I have to write the adventures of I and this would be a good experience for me for the same.

* But if I am setting it inside the brain, how will I introduce the rule.

* Why not work over two plots, one in real life and the other in brain, and then I will further work over which ever will suit me more. Besides, I will also have the option of undertaking both as a project.

* real life:
> The guy is searching for a rule, in the end, he recognizes his talent and decides to focus his entire life on it.

* So why exactly is he searching for this rule?
> Because he feels that something like this exists in this world.

* Should not I make it all simple and just jot down how things went for me during my iit days and in mnnit?
>

* Should I give up this novel thing and focus on story writing for now.
> Even after I would have written the stories, novels writing would be equally difficult.

* Should I accept that I cannot write a fictional novel?
> Look I can write a novel if I have all of it in my brain i.e. I am able to visualize it well. For example, I can very easily write My MNNIT days coz I have all of it in my brain and I need not to visualize anything about it. So if I am able to visualize my plot well, I am definitely not going to have any problem.

* In the novel, I may place events which the hero would realize in the end has made up his destiny like destiny planned my actions for writing like the one learning the typing class, the three year gap, the solitude, the low cpi, the breakups, the blogging etc.

* So all I need is a good visualization of the story.
> But for that, I need to have a story.

* Right now, I have the name of the novel and its central theme.

* I have to insert this destiny thing i.e. when the part of the puzzles reveal the whole picture.

* Can I not make it a story on my life, the typewriting, iit, mnnit, blogging etc

* What will be the thing (talent) that he will realize in the end?
> drawing
> writing
> singing

Now on, every day is the same

Aug 17:
* Today was the last day of my three day long holiday from 15 Aug (Fri) to 17 Aug (Sat).

* I had missed Rakshabandhan, learned some twenty odd words and deleted my all blogs in the last two days.

* Most of the holiday had been spent in either sleeping or mulling over what I have to do with my writing in the long run.

* Today too, while after an one hour exhaustive session, I was thinking over the same question, I came to this conclusion that its vain to defer my plans for any fixed checkpoint in life. There is nothing much I can do to direct life and thus the only option I am left with is to adapt myself according to it.

* So I thought that like my college recruitments, when despite my least intentions I was selected in a private firm with great package, it is possible that my other long term plans too would meet similar fate.

* Thus I decided that I would no longer wait for any green signals and now on, would live (especially in terms of writing) as if I have got all what I wanted to.

* In other words, it means that from now on, all the days in my life are the same for me.

* I suppose this might also serve as a handy rule i.e. 'all the days in life are the same'.

* Right now I am feeling a lot more relaxed and confident, especially because I have availed myself all the time in the world and also, relieved myself of any fears regarding occurrence and non-occurrence of any event.

* Let's see what lies for me in future.

* And also that how long this rule may survive.

Aug 21:
* Today after I submitted the story for phoonk, I also made a 'new' blog, with the title vomits and the address yupsthatsme.

* in between these six days, I had been questioned twice about my blogs once by anoob and the other time by saket.