Dec 15:
Dec 14:
dream1
* I live in some sort of narrow corridor-cum-home-cum-shop amidst a chain of shops in a place like chowk with my computer too in the place, one night when I return to my place, I find that my home has changed to a cheap jwellery shop, I enter the shop to find a girl putting her material everywhere in the shop, I ask her but she is very cool about it, I then go in the neighbourhood to enquire about it and ask how did he let it happen, but it turns out that that man himself let all that happen and he persuades me to accept sharing that shop with the girl
I am infuriated and I yell that I will teach him a lesson and will register cases of forgery against him, he leaves the shop probably to call some thugs, I then go in the shop and warn the girl that if she does not leave by herself I will throw all her things, the girl agrees and slowly starts putting her things outside while cursing me all the same, I offer her my help but she refuses
I do not have my mobile, in the other shop next to me, moazzam is there, I ask if for a mobile and decide that I will call tinku bhaiya and bhaiya and teach him a lesson
the girl only put aside some of her things and say that she will not put away the shelfs etc, I then tell her that if she does not do it, I will throw them myself,
then a thug comes, looking somewhat like the brother of deepak bhaiya, and calls someone call salamat his friend, I am happy that today I will finally be beaten
dream2
* a military hostel sort of, some fight among boys, the boys are from outside but have come to visit the hostel, the boys get beaten, then a minister sort of personality enters the hostel, calls everyone, everyone is afraid, he then scolds everyone, havoc in the hostel, he enters the rooms and checks the cleanliness etc and scolds boys for not keeping it clean, he then calls the boy who was the reason of the fight, we do not see but we can hear him being beaten by the minister, I think that what sort of man is the chief who is not resisting, I think probably he is afraid of the anger of the minister or being nullified by him, I think that if I were the chief, probably I would have done the same or at least I would have got into his knees and begged him to leave the boy.
dream3
* some sort of mess, after the food, I ask for sweet dish, the servant tells me something but I refuse, he then offers me something else, a burger dipped in sweet soup with salad, I take it
Dec 13:
* went to vaishno devi, the alley beside jns through the forest led me to a place supposed to be vaishno devi, chunks of people met in the way, they are walking in a line, I surpass them by walking out of line, after some time, we reach a hospital, people are there in the hospital but we do not know where to head, then I see some people going down slopy downstairs, although I do not know whether it is the right way, I still follow them and reach to the bottom first, but there it turns out that it is not the route and instead I have come in a toilet, I pee there and again walk upstairs to the top hurriedly, during the way, there are shop, chambers of doctors etc, at the top i ask the route and someone direct me to the route, when I reach there, I ask someone about vaishno devi, he tells me that its 250 km from here and we are presently in imambara (or something like that), I should take a train but when I told him that I am alone, he told me to travel in the general quota, I say that since its 250 kms, it must take 5 hours, then he says that when we reach katra, it would be a lot of uphill tracking and if we are planning to watch movie, not all three should sleep at the same time, beside we should take a minnimum of 3-4 hours of sleep, aps meets me there, I am surprised to see him and he tells me that he too has come out of mood, near the top stair, he has submitted his purse for fear of pocket pickers and suggest me to do the same, I ask the rate, the guy tell me that its between 5-30 and then after seeing my stuff, he tells that mine would cost 30, I am irritated and ask aps how much did it cost him, he says 23
I decide to not give him the purse and check aps purse in which stuffs from other guys too has come, we return him the stuffs, then I put my atm, mobile in the school bag and ask aps to put it in his front chest whereas I take over aps big bags and I ask aps to walk ahead of me so that I could keep an eye on him, I am afraid that if my atm is lost this time too, I may have to go through a lot of trouble.
we discuss that it is not good for us two to go on such a long voyage, we decide that we will come in winter in the off season with others but then we realize that it is winter itself and the seventh sem has already passed away
while we are resting at a place, a group of four guys is also standing there, one of them suspiciously watches our stuffs and especially my pawan's watch, he then drops his key over our bags and moves to pick it, I stop it and hand it myself, then the other guy drops his key and laughs
I give him back the key and know that we may have to fight, I think I should send aps to call police whereas I would handle the guys, I also think that I should have thrown the key in the river, the guys also watch our digicam.
reason:
* the 'key' scene might have been inspired from 'ek chalis ki last local'
Nov 27:
a long and wide terrace with uneven floor and segments, we are their, watching the cricket being played on the ground floor through a big rectangular void in the floor. a lot of people playing, parmar too, after sometime I ask parmar that I want to play too, he denies and tells that their are runs only in the straight, I insist but he still denies, I come ddownstairs and watch them play closely, then maurya comes and stands beside me, we discuss about the game and say how foolish it is to keep runs only in the straight, then we talk of the placements, I joke that compnaies are only coming for other branches and not cs, maurya contradiects me and says that they are also comimg for cs too, he also tells me a good news, that he has got a job today, I ask which company, he tells some name and tells that its package is only slightly above drdo. I ask why then he tells that due to financial priorities, I say that he may not do ias preparation in the prifate sector.
I then come on the first floor and surprisingly see that now lawn tennis and badminton too is being playied. vipin is among the one playing tennis so I request him to let me play too. vipin then shows me that he is onl a tool and he is doing for his two friends and brother who was also plying. sad, i leave the place. then i trurn back to see that ojha is playing and vipin's brother is standing aside. By the time I reach the adhoc court, Kapil would have reached there too and teaching vipin' s brother how to grip the racket. Then Kapil pronounces that abhishek knows to play the best and indeed I return a good shot immediately.
Since it was a ad-hoc court, just behind was a deep rectangular void, as is expected in the architecture of a house. The tennis ball apparently went frequently there causing a trouble in the flow of game. At one such occasion, a boy, whom they had set for the purpose, says that he will immdiately dive and fetch the ball for us. While doing so, he wants to jump the ten feet high but I stop him and say that he should take precaution instead of showing off to the girls.
He jumps and fetches the ball and is still in the void when the protrudes to take shape of a hand and tries to catch him. Although their is a great possibility to e scape but the kid becomes frightened to see it. Slowly, the hand ultimately catches and crushes him. On the top, as always, I still parry courage with my intellectual confusion.
The source of the devil act turns out to be a small kid in the crowd who now utters that after the kid, he will now kill me. He then picks out a standing sheep, fills her with his power and set her towards me.
I sense the danger and immediately run away from him. Now the floor turns out to be of golwara's terrace. I jump from the second floor in the gap on the floor and run away. But the sheep is very fast and quickly catches to me.
I now think I would need ammunition to kill this sheep and that I can get from the prakash arms store. But instead of taking straight route from my house to prakash, I prefer a complicated router from the street to vaishali laj to the first floor then jumping from it to kedar fruit shop and then the shop itself.
However in the way, when I am hiding in the customes of a tailor shop below the vaisahli laj beside panditji, the sheep (now a zebra) passes by me but I somehow manage to hide myself.
It appear that I do fool the sheep but by the time, I reach the shop it is going to be closed and was already half so. I beg for a gun and ammunition. The servant says that the shop is closed and there is no money too. I say that I am the son of Jagdish Baranwal that I live nearby and that a sheep is behind my life.
No one listens or understands me, Then I shut myself in the big room like locker of the shop and beg for ammunition. People including the dm keep on coming and pursuing me to come out but I do not listen to them.
After staying in the locker, I predict that the sheep has not figured me out but I guess that to get rid of the sheep, I would first have to get rid of the kid who invoked it.
So I now set up my trap. I go to the room of the kid using imitation technique. But the kid finds it out and escapes. In the next scene, the kid and me are facing each other, the sheep is nowhere to be seen and we are fighting in ninja technique.
Then a small sheep appears. The kid tries to awakens it but then I cripple his hands and tear off the sheep.
Reasons:
1> Had been watching Naruto lately.
2> saw the locker room of sbi lately.
3> yesterday I talked with kapil about badminton.
Nov 24:
A> Me and three other persons (two gals, one guy) are working in some software company (probably microsoft) one day decide to break free of ourselves. Our office is in a cornered section where very few people come. Thus, we break, everything that we see there, the furniture, the bathroom on the above floor etc.
When I again find myself in the environment, I see that all others have gone. Out of curiosity, I go the above floor through a stair, enter into the bathroom, break the english comode and the wash basin. Then I hear noises coming from downstairs. I peek to find out that he is someone else. I get frightened and cannot think of what to do. There is an escape window but its on the other wall and there is no route to it. I lay down behind an elevated terrace hoping that the guy would not see me. But when I check him out again, he is coming towards me with a crossed iron bar. Then there is fight between us. I think that if the guys had called swat, it would have been much difficult to escape from this building. I think that I would have somehow opened the escape door and then, hide in the bathroom giving the impression that I escaped from the window.
Reasons:
1> At Lucknow, there was an English comode.
2> An iron rod was lying in front of 110, Patel.
3> I had read the word 'swat' in dictionary yesterday.
B> I and amitji are sitting somewhere (not sure where). I take her hand and ask which is the engagement finger after seeing her little finger empty. She points the finger. I ask her in a jovial tone that if I were to propose her, would she accept it. She says 'of course, I will'.
Reason:
1> While playing TT yesterday, a ring from the engagement finger of a guy had fallen down and I chuckled over the thought whether he has been engaged.
27 Sept:
* me, vineeta mam and a girl (probably one of the seven sisters) are practicing for some function in an empty two storeyed hall. It is late and we are the only two practicing for it. Then the principal comes and asks us that we should give him a demo and then we can go. We give him the demo, a sort of group rehersal, of the song hey ishwar ya allah. Though I am not a part of the chorus, I too participate. The principal is happy and says that we can leave after one more practice while he himself leaves. But after he goes, we start packing and mrs. vineeta tells us that its foolish to be that sincere. While I was singing, I thought I was quite well and that the principal will identify my voice and praise it.
reason:
* read an article in india today regarding riots in kandhamal district involving christians hence the principal thing.
* the two storeyed room was similar to the one of farhan akhtar in rock on.
* there had been a group song on rock on in swagat 08
* dream 2: some murder mystery, someone wants to kill a guy, he is suspicious of everyone including me, but then I win his trust, in the end, I take him to the roof and want to reveal who is plotting against him but then I think that why cannot I be the murderer and in the novel, I would describe it as that I jettisioned the person.
* dream 3: 27 sept
azamgarh, I do two murders, the first one is of abhinav, the second is of an aide, exactly why I do this murder is not clear, I kill abhinav with a sword, in badarka, in broad day light, in front of public and I am on a cycle. After killing him, I first want to drive home via the agrasen route then due to slower cycle speed on that path, I take the shortcut in the alley beside Mrs. Mandakini's house. The second murder (or the first one) is of abhinav's helper/driver in a ambassdor. Abhinav's aide named rajesh help me in this.
After the two murders, I now mull over my prospects of being caught. Abhinav's family is a influential one and I know that they would leave no stone unturned to get the murderer caught. I am sure that the police would interrogate hard and possibly, there might be a lie detector test too. I think of ways of delinking myself from the murder. I am not sure whether the public who saw me after I had murdered Abhinav would recognize me. To check, I again go through the same route on the same cycle (a hero ladies). Rajendra, the mess worker is there. He looks with suspicion towards me but the I pass beside him.
Then I think that somehow the police would know that Abhinav had a meeting with me. So I have to come up with something really logical so that I do not come under suspicion. I think that I would say that I had called him to go to prateek's house who had recently come in the city but when he did not come for long, I left him. simple and sweet. I also think of murdering the left aide so that nothing could trace it back to me but I do not want to complicate things more.
I think of contacting rajesh to give him some instructions but I am afraid that this might not work as I intend. There is a great possibility that police would trace the clues to me and then, there might be a lie detector test.
The chances of my being caught are great. I think of fleeing away but then this would further deteriorate my chances. My future looms in front of me. A life term in jail, fourteen years of life aloof from everyone else and then back to shop. I am happy that finally I would get some free time to write.
But then the intangible factors loom. how would i face my family. I think that I would say to them that I am innocent even if I am proved guilty but then it comes to saheb and I think that I would tell the truth to him.
till now, there is no guilt in me for having murdered two humans. I am thinking of dialogues that I am a cold blooded human and that is how it is.
but I am afraid of being caught but I can do nothing about it. its evening and i see the headlines of tomorrow's newspaper, two men brutally murdered, the murderer is a young boy, etc etc
I am preparing myself for my destiny. I think of manu (probably i have murdered chanu too I forgot it after I wake up). chacha talks to her about me. I am just waiting for the trial, the humiliation and the sentence. there is nothing I can do, things have gone too far and now there is no looking back even if I want to. I am very broken down, no way out but then my sleep breaks :)
reasons for the dream:
* rajesh is the name of the mess worker whom I teach
* the sword might be the one I saw at the mela at teliarganj
* chinese background, a creature wanting to take revenge, duplicates the signature of the major general get amnesty, fools a cat, fire in the fields, lost gf in the flood, should have saved her, the general is a mice, refused to touched by dirty soldiers, "many times he had to travel thousand mile" to catch the general, use unique method to land from the roof top to the bottom, although it appears that he is using some aeroplane actually its a paper folded, locked in bunker, all in graphic,
22 oct:
* A slide in the middle of a building, leads to many paths, the mac d, a godown basement ( this one by the way is its original end point), you just have to slip in and bang, you land on a truck waiting to take you out on a free ride, if you are unlucky, your butt would just have to bear the heat for some extra time, its a old villain's den sort of place, truck come to their helipad, the place digs in through the mechanical elevator etc. To come out of the basement, you would have to do it with hand, feet and without any stairs and do an upward climb through the debris
* in the basement thing, before the truck takes you on the ride, first there was a elevator sort of thing and you need to hold to something to avoid being thrown or injured. I got once by the way
* among others shaurya
sitting outside the home alley with some english literature book in hand, manu and two three other kids are playing there, one or two jhoola are there, manu is unable to play and I also do not assist, then I decide to help manu and leave studying, but by then, manu too has come
Dec 14:
dream1
* I live in some sort of narrow corridor-cum-home-cum-shop amidst a chain of shops in a place like chowk with my computer too in the place, one night when I return to my place, I find that my home has changed to a cheap jwellery shop, I enter the shop to find a girl putting her material everywhere in the shop, I ask her but she is very cool about it, I then go in the neighbourhood to enquire about it and ask how did he let it happen, but it turns out that that man himself let all that happen and he persuades me to accept sharing that shop with the girl
I am infuriated and I yell that I will teach him a lesson and will register cases of forgery against him, he leaves the shop probably to call some thugs, I then go in the shop and warn the girl that if she does not leave by herself I will throw all her things, the girl agrees and slowly starts putting her things outside while cursing me all the same, I offer her my help but she refuses
I do not have my mobile, in the other shop next to me, moazzam is there, I ask if for a mobile and decide that I will call tinku bhaiya and bhaiya and teach him a lesson
the girl only put aside some of her things and say that she will not put away the shelfs etc, I then tell her that if she does not do it, I will throw them myself,
then a thug comes, looking somewhat like the brother of deepak bhaiya, and calls someone call salamat his friend, I am happy that today I will finally be beaten
dream2
* a military hostel sort of, some fight among boys, the boys are from outside but have come to visit the hostel, the boys get beaten, then a minister sort of personality enters the hostel, calls everyone, everyone is afraid, he then scolds everyone, havoc in the hostel, he enters the rooms and checks the cleanliness etc and scolds boys for not keeping it clean, he then calls the boy who was the reason of the fight, we do not see but we can hear him being beaten by the minister, I think that what sort of man is the chief who is not resisting, I think probably he is afraid of the anger of the minister or being nullified by him, I think that if I were the chief, probably I would have done the same or at least I would have got into his knees and begged him to leave the boy.
dream3
* some sort of mess, after the food, I ask for sweet dish, the servant tells me something but I refuse, he then offers me something else, a burger dipped in sweet soup with salad, I take it
Dec 13:
* went to vaishno devi, the alley beside jns through the forest led me to a place supposed to be vaishno devi, chunks of people met in the way, they are walking in a line, I surpass them by walking out of line, after some time, we reach a hospital, people are there in the hospital but we do not know where to head, then I see some people going down slopy downstairs, although I do not know whether it is the right way, I still follow them and reach to the bottom first, but there it turns out that it is not the route and instead I have come in a toilet, I pee there and again walk upstairs to the top hurriedly, during the way, there are shop, chambers of doctors etc, at the top i ask the route and someone direct me to the route, when I reach there, I ask someone about vaishno devi, he tells me that its 250 km from here and we are presently in imambara (or something like that), I should take a train but when I told him that I am alone, he told me to travel in the general quota, I say that since its 250 kms, it must take 5 hours, then he says that when we reach katra, it would be a lot of uphill tracking and if we are planning to watch movie, not all three should sleep at the same time, beside we should take a minnimum of 3-4 hours of sleep, aps meets me there, I am surprised to see him and he tells me that he too has come out of mood, near the top stair, he has submitted his purse for fear of pocket pickers and suggest me to do the same, I ask the rate, the guy tell me that its between 5-30 and then after seeing my stuff, he tells that mine would cost 30, I am irritated and ask aps how much did it cost him, he says 23
I decide to not give him the purse and check aps purse in which stuffs from other guys too has come, we return him the stuffs, then I put my atm, mobile in the school bag and ask aps to put it in his front chest whereas I take over aps big bags and I ask aps to walk ahead of me so that I could keep an eye on him, I am afraid that if my atm is lost this time too, I may have to go through a lot of trouble.
we discuss that it is not good for us two to go on such a long voyage, we decide that we will come in winter in the off season with others but then we realize that it is winter itself and the seventh sem has already passed away
while we are resting at a place, a group of four guys is also standing there, one of them suspiciously watches our stuffs and especially my pawan's watch, he then drops his key over our bags and moves to pick it, I stop it and hand it myself, then the other guy drops his key and laughs
I give him back the key and know that we may have to fight, I think I should send aps to call police whereas I would handle the guys, I also think that I should have thrown the key in the river, the guys also watch our digicam.
reason:
* the 'key' scene might have been inspired from 'ek chalis ki last local'
Nov 27:
a long and wide terrace with uneven floor and segments, we are their, watching the cricket being played on the ground floor through a big rectangular void in the floor. a lot of people playing, parmar too, after sometime I ask parmar that I want to play too, he denies and tells that their are runs only in the straight, I insist but he still denies, I come ddownstairs and watch them play closely, then maurya comes and stands beside me, we discuss about the game and say how foolish it is to keep runs only in the straight, then we talk of the placements, I joke that compnaies are only coming for other branches and not cs, maurya contradiects me and says that they are also comimg for cs too, he also tells me a good news, that he has got a job today, I ask which company, he tells some name and tells that its package is only slightly above drdo. I ask why then he tells that due to financial priorities, I say that he may not do ias preparation in the prifate sector.
I then come on the first floor and surprisingly see that now lawn tennis and badminton too is being playied. vipin is among the one playing tennis so I request him to let me play too. vipin then shows me that he is onl a tool and he is doing for his two friends and brother who was also plying. sad, i leave the place. then i trurn back to see that ojha is playing and vipin's brother is standing aside. By the time I reach the adhoc court, Kapil would have reached there too and teaching vipin' s brother how to grip the racket. Then Kapil pronounces that abhishek knows to play the best and indeed I return a good shot immediately.
Since it was a ad-hoc court, just behind was a deep rectangular void, as is expected in the architecture of a house. The tennis ball apparently went frequently there causing a trouble in the flow of game. At one such occasion, a boy, whom they had set for the purpose, says that he will immdiately dive and fetch the ball for us. While doing so, he wants to jump the ten feet high but I stop him and say that he should take precaution instead of showing off to the girls.
He jumps and fetches the ball and is still in the void when the protrudes to take shape of a hand and tries to catch him. Although their is a great possibility to e scape but the kid becomes frightened to see it. Slowly, the hand ultimately catches and crushes him. On the top, as always, I still parry courage with my intellectual confusion.
The source of the devil act turns out to be a small kid in the crowd who now utters that after the kid, he will now kill me. He then picks out a standing sheep, fills her with his power and set her towards me.
I sense the danger and immediately run away from him. Now the floor turns out to be of golwara's terrace. I jump from the second floor in the gap on the floor and run away. But the sheep is very fast and quickly catches to me.
I now think I would need ammunition to kill this sheep and that I can get from the prakash arms store. But instead of taking straight route from my house to prakash, I prefer a complicated router from the street to vaishali laj to the first floor then jumping from it to kedar fruit shop and then the shop itself.
However in the way, when I am hiding in the customes of a tailor shop below the vaisahli laj beside panditji, the sheep (now a zebra) passes by me but I somehow manage to hide myself.
It appear that I do fool the sheep but by the time, I reach the shop it is going to be closed and was already half so. I beg for a gun and ammunition. The servant says that the shop is closed and there is no money too. I say that I am the son of Jagdish Baranwal that I live nearby and that a sheep is behind my life.
No one listens or understands me, Then I shut myself in the big room like locker of the shop and beg for ammunition. People including the dm keep on coming and pursuing me to come out but I do not listen to them.
After staying in the locker, I predict that the sheep has not figured me out but I guess that to get rid of the sheep, I would first have to get rid of the kid who invoked it.
So I now set up my trap. I go to the room of the kid using imitation technique. But the kid finds it out and escapes. In the next scene, the kid and me are facing each other, the sheep is nowhere to be seen and we are fighting in ninja technique.
Then a small sheep appears. The kid tries to awakens it but then I cripple his hands and tear off the sheep.
Reasons:
1> Had been watching Naruto lately.
2> saw the locker room of sbi lately.
3> yesterday I talked with kapil about badminton.
Nov 24:
A> Me and three other persons (two gals, one guy) are working in some software company (probably microsoft) one day decide to break free of ourselves. Our office is in a cornered section where very few people come. Thus, we break, everything that we see there, the furniture, the bathroom on the above floor etc.
When I again find myself in the environment, I see that all others have gone. Out of curiosity, I go the above floor through a stair, enter into the bathroom, break the english comode and the wash basin. Then I hear noises coming from downstairs. I peek to find out that he is someone else. I get frightened and cannot think of what to do. There is an escape window but its on the other wall and there is no route to it. I lay down behind an elevated terrace hoping that the guy would not see me. But when I check him out again, he is coming towards me with a crossed iron bar. Then there is fight between us. I think that if the guys had called swat, it would have been much difficult to escape from this building. I think that I would have somehow opened the escape door and then, hide in the bathroom giving the impression that I escaped from the window.
Reasons:
1> At Lucknow, there was an English comode.
2> An iron rod was lying in front of 110, Patel.
3> I had read the word 'swat' in dictionary yesterday.
B> I and amitji are sitting somewhere (not sure where). I take her hand and ask which is the engagement finger after seeing her little finger empty. She points the finger. I ask her in a jovial tone that if I were to propose her, would she accept it. She says 'of course, I will'.
Reason:
1> While playing TT yesterday, a ring from the engagement finger of a guy had fallen down and I chuckled over the thought whether he has been engaged.
27 Sept:
* me, vineeta mam and a girl (probably one of the seven sisters) are practicing for some function in an empty two storeyed hall. It is late and we are the only two practicing for it. Then the principal comes and asks us that we should give him a demo and then we can go. We give him the demo, a sort of group rehersal, of the song hey ishwar ya allah. Though I am not a part of the chorus, I too participate. The principal is happy and says that we can leave after one more practice while he himself leaves. But after he goes, we start packing and mrs. vineeta tells us that its foolish to be that sincere. While I was singing, I thought I was quite well and that the principal will identify my voice and praise it.
reason:
* read an article in india today regarding riots in kandhamal district involving christians hence the principal thing.
* the two storeyed room was similar to the one of farhan akhtar in rock on.
* there had been a group song on rock on in swagat 08
* dream 2: some murder mystery, someone wants to kill a guy, he is suspicious of everyone including me, but then I win his trust, in the end, I take him to the roof and want to reveal who is plotting against him but then I think that why cannot I be the murderer and in the novel, I would describe it as that I jettisioned the person.
* dream 3: 27 sept
azamgarh, I do two murders, the first one is of abhinav, the second is of an aide, exactly why I do this murder is not clear, I kill abhinav with a sword, in badarka, in broad day light, in front of public and I am on a cycle. After killing him, I first want to drive home via the agrasen route then due to slower cycle speed on that path, I take the shortcut in the alley beside Mrs. Mandakini's house. The second murder (or the first one) is of abhinav's helper/driver in a ambassdor. Abhinav's aide named rajesh help me in this.
After the two murders, I now mull over my prospects of being caught. Abhinav's family is a influential one and I know that they would leave no stone unturned to get the murderer caught. I am sure that the police would interrogate hard and possibly, there might be a lie detector test too. I think of ways of delinking myself from the murder. I am not sure whether the public who saw me after I had murdered Abhinav would recognize me. To check, I again go through the same route on the same cycle (a hero ladies). Rajendra, the mess worker is there. He looks with suspicion towards me but the I pass beside him.
Then I think that somehow the police would know that Abhinav had a meeting with me. So I have to come up with something really logical so that I do not come under suspicion. I think that I would say that I had called him to go to prateek's house who had recently come in the city but when he did not come for long, I left him. simple and sweet. I also think of murdering the left aide so that nothing could trace it back to me but I do not want to complicate things more.
I think of contacting rajesh to give him some instructions but I am afraid that this might not work as I intend. There is a great possibility that police would trace the clues to me and then, there might be a lie detector test.
The chances of my being caught are great. I think of fleeing away but then this would further deteriorate my chances. My future looms in front of me. A life term in jail, fourteen years of life aloof from everyone else and then back to shop. I am happy that finally I would get some free time to write.
But then the intangible factors loom. how would i face my family. I think that I would say to them that I am innocent even if I am proved guilty but then it comes to saheb and I think that I would tell the truth to him.
till now, there is no guilt in me for having murdered two humans. I am thinking of dialogues that I am a cold blooded human and that is how it is.
but I am afraid of being caught but I can do nothing about it. its evening and i see the headlines of tomorrow's newspaper, two men brutally murdered, the murderer is a young boy, etc etc
I am preparing myself for my destiny. I think of manu (probably i have murdered chanu too I forgot it after I wake up). chacha talks to her about me. I am just waiting for the trial, the humiliation and the sentence. there is nothing I can do, things have gone too far and now there is no looking back even if I want to. I am very broken down, no way out but then my sleep breaks :)
reasons for the dream:
* rajesh is the name of the mess worker whom I teach
* the sword might be the one I saw at the mela at teliarganj
* chinese background, a creature wanting to take revenge, duplicates the signature of the major general get amnesty, fools a cat, fire in the fields, lost gf in the flood, should have saved her, the general is a mice, refused to touched by dirty soldiers, "many times he had to travel thousand mile" to catch the general, use unique method to land from the roof top to the bottom, although it appears that he is using some aeroplane actually its a paper folded, locked in bunker, all in graphic,
22 oct:
* A slide in the middle of a building, leads to many paths, the mac d, a godown basement ( this one by the way is its original end point), you just have to slip in and bang, you land on a truck waiting to take you out on a free ride, if you are unlucky, your butt would just have to bear the heat for some extra time, its a old villain's den sort of place, truck come to their helipad, the place digs in through the mechanical elevator etc. To come out of the basement, you would have to do it with hand, feet and without any stairs and do an upward climb through the debris
* in the basement thing, before the truck takes you on the ride, first there was a elevator sort of thing and you need to hold to something to avoid being thrown or injured. I got once by the way
* among others shaurya
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