Sunday, September 14, 2008

fight + jayanta + suicide + mukti

sept 14:

* day before yesterday, I had a fight with jayanta, anta and ojha.

* to be precise, it was not a fight, but a sort of teasing in which they ganged up on me

* after initial resistance, I gave up and let them speak.

* when they were over, I had got into my silent anger mode

* I gave up talking to them, to aps and to any human whom I don't think worthy of it

* but amid this solitude, I realized one great thing.

* that my desire to commit suicide had vanished

* yes surprising as it is, since I do not have any friends now, I do not want to commit suicide.

* very surprising indeed.

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